Logging off now. I felt like I drove over a small hump and I stopped and got out to see what it was. Press question mark to learn the rest of the keyboard shortcuts. The guilt has been eating me up, if I hadnt been so confident shed stay, if Id just not taken her out, if Id tried harder to get to her in time, if Id just gone into that part of the neighborhood Id neglected she might have come to me. The doc gave her a shot of antibiotic and we brought her back home. They took 3 but would not take the 4th one. He was a member of the family; we'd had him since he was a puppy and he never spent a moment without us - from the moment he woke up till we slept, he was by our side. Today I could just see that something was off. Blood started oozing out of his mouth. NOT BUYING ONE. I feel guilt because of the circumstances that led to his death over the past 2 weeks. i had the dog for about 6 months and i loved him, i really did. After an hour 45 mins, she regained spontaneous circulation but was not breathing well. We could of done, we had unpacked most things by the Thursday he could of settled in with us then! I thought it was an empty tummy that was a risk. We found out she was about 14 years old, had no teeth, was blind in the other eye as well, and only weighed about 3lbs. She was such a beautiful sweet little creature with the quirkiest personality. I hate how it ended and am having an extremely difficult time shaking the feeling that I caused his death through neglect and that he died feeling lonely, trapped, unloved, thirsty, and abandoned on top of all of his physical health problems. My wife is an amazing, loving person and I (obviously) want to spend my life with her. The book was nominated for the Nebula Award, but lost to Dune. Do you feel like you caused your dog or cats death? I cant describe the guitlyness I am feeling right now for leaving him alone and died. It was not until I requested her records after the fact that I realized she had severe hypertension that day. For a few weeks I tried to help her heal. Please get help and don't get a dog at least not for now. I brought my daughter Guineapig. I was begging her not to leave me, mind you, and when I saw she was lucid I sung her favorite song to her. The other cat came to normal. I understand your viewpoint and agree to an extent but youve given a pretty imbecilic approach to this situation, yeah I suppose at least hes remorseful. When a dog dies, you get through it, you don't get over it. His head was between two bars. My axolotl (type of salamander) died earlier today and it was my fault. I was a bit surprised and felt sorry for her but confident this could be treated and she would feel better. I wanted so much to save her and give her all the love she hadnt had until the day I found her. He lost his life because of me . But our sitter was round for a few hours at time that the neighbour felt they were being well cared for and it seems she didnt check in with them too much. Likely brain damage. Love at first site. To clarify the reason Im so worried about his sister dying of grief is because my grandmother had three cats. I got so tied up with my life and being selfish with my alone time. My cat Florio died in my arms this morning of cancer. By then he was in bad shape. That action was probably the worst thing Ive ever done in my life . I could have tried cpr since theres a chance at 15 mins I could have gotten him to breathe again. The anger, guilt and sadness feels like it will consume me at times. If you did not deliberately set out to harm your pet, then you have nothing to feel guilty about. It is incredibly painful. After I cleaned it she was dry heaving again, then began to stagger and breathe very rapidly. I had errands to run and I strapped my daughter into her car seat and pulled my vehicle out of the garage. We couldnt get him into his normal kennels, and so had to book him in to a new one it had been recommended by another kennel and great reviews. i find it hard to talk to people and bond with anyone. I found her decomposing. I just can't stop thinking about how happy she was to see us when we pulled up, and then a few short seconds later her life was ended. He seemed to deal with this fine. I have had brushed or showred or havent had my lunch. My husband feels more guilty and blames himself. I said sorry to Lolly out loud, for so many things. You never expect it to be their last day. All i can think of is when I was a drunk I was abusive to him. I run 2 businesses and I feel I have not taken the needed time to love on this absolutely sweet dog God gave meand 2 days ago I was running a fever of 102 up til today. Not long after she appeared to regain respiratory function, retrospectively I do not believe the respirations were adequate given her outcome but at the time I saw the chest rise and was hopeful. Why not give the family another chance to show another dog the same kind of love Kion received? Your dog or cat loved you beyond all reason so you must have donesomethingright. I feel I could have prevented it. Dreaming that his little life wasnt cut so incredibly short by my carelessness. Jordan me and my husband have a similar experience. Whether it's long-standing baggage, happy thoughts, or recent trauma, posting it here may provide some relief. She had a long day and I felt she probably needed rest. Get that nasty secret off your chest or simply use this as a place to vent. Although the specific reason for feelings of guilt differ from person to person, almost everyone feels some guilt after the death of a pet. Id clean them up every day. When I was younger my dog had gotten out without me knowing and followed me to a friends house. They mean so much to me. You want him to trust you, you have to trust him. He shook his head no at me so i ran back to my baby and tried again. She laid down but refused to get up and appeared suddenly lethargic. He had no cuts, no blood, nothing. I was selfish and kept leaving it up to myself to get it right. I had a basket full of clean clothes that had been sitting crumpled up for a couple days. The sweetest little girl. I never expected her to get so bad so quickly. I accidentally killed my dog. The grief is overwhelming. I completely neglected her for over a month and I decided to finally go in and care for her and she was dead. However, at 4.15 Single Dot started to breath heavily After vomiting and I called my husband to go to the vet. He also was prone to disappearing for days at a time, sometimes more than a week. He didn't really want us hanging around him but we all stayed with him until the end. I thought if this was hypoglycemia the sugar would help. "Some dog breeds like Pomeranians will turn their nose up at bleach after tasting it," Hovda says. so i would whip his ass, sometimes going to far and really hurting him. But I dont blame her neither, since its COVID and I think she was also wary of going in at times when our sitter was already intending to. But by requesting the window be left open I put the cats in harms way as I hadnt realized the danger of one of them getting trapped in there and it being life threatening. I heard a thump and I immediately knew what must have happened. I hadnt this time. I felt I was forced into a position to have to kill the thing I loved the most in the world and my mind has yet to figure a way to live with it and my fear is that I cannot. I looked and saw something in there. This might be the single worse thing Ive gone through in life. We ( me, my mum, dad, and brother ) had a beloved springer spaniel named Cooper. I know how you feel and I'm so sorry for your loss. Its just so sad and I hate to think how long she was in there stuck and struggling and suffering. We moved about 2 weeks ago and both my wife and I were stressed out about it all the time, so I didnt give him much out time like I used to; maybe a total of 1 or 1 1/2 hours a day tops, and even then he would spend a chunk of that sleeping somewhere. This didnt happen. I have 3 cats and one of the other cats was sick during last week and I gave him specilly whatever he likes to encouraged him to eat. Just over a week ago, I found a stray cat with a horrible infected wound on its face and one eye. You might be thinking "I could have saved him if only I would . I wanted to end her suffering. If this helps anyone cope than Ill be happy please rest in love my Sophie birdie. In addition to talking with the dog trainer, you should also contact your vet and get a medical opinion. Hey, I just feel if this can help someone cope that they are not alone then why not. My husband was driving across our land with Oso running ahead like usual. Im depressed. But then she moved very slightly so we decided to take her to the emergency room. My poor 7yr old daughter found her best friend dead. I did a similar thing when I was learning to drive. I picked her up and took her to my family hoping they would say it wasnt her body but it was. We took her to the vet who said her lymph node was enlarged and look liked it had spread . His brother Duffy got very depressed and died a month later of a heart attack. Shes always crazing to come indoors after short spells outside. Im a truck drivera rookie. He even rebelled when I put it on him!! I will never forget or be able to get the attack out of my head. As I have read through many of your heartbreaking stories with tears in my eyes, I am going to share mine. "Labradors, however, might down the entire bucket." They pumped her full of drugs to reverse the anaesthetic. Grieving the loss of a pet is often as painful as mourning a close friend or relative. We do have two dogs and another cat. Darling Lolly, I love you so much. Honestly Ive considered ********* , I dont feel like theres a way I could get rid of this guilt and live like before. when i went to go check on him some time later, he was dead. I know this is easier said than done and it takes effort to forgive yourself. Itll help you deal with guilt when you caused your pets death. I want him back. She was the sweetest dog. Shortly after she arrived, I came down with Covid. Seriously take in a breath, exhale a breath, and hold my cyber hand. I thanked her for her life. I saw his last minute when he peed and pooped himself. You may think its stupid to not play an entire game if a charcter dies but i like to get into the story of single player games and im not interested in playing some cliche ridden game where the dog dies. I dont understand it at times. When I moved her onto my chest she started having violent spasms and flung herself off of me. I love animals and couldnt ever bring myself to lay a hand on my dog for example, but this guy clearly has some problems and needs those solved as priority #1. I miss my beautiful girl. Find the right court. For instance, I now cringe when I recall how angry I was at my beloved cat, Zoey, for scratchingthe basementdoor (I didnt realize the door to her litter box was shut tight, and she couldnt get in). 3.1K. Up until the Monday before we dropped him off there was a lot going on in the house, removing furniture, packing boxes etc, which I can only imagine how unsettling this was for him . I had to kill my cat. The vet called and said we should consider putting him to sleep, but then called me back in 10 min and said nm hes fine he can go home. She follows me everywhere and if I'm in bed, she will meow obnoxiously until she can snuggle up on top of or around me. She was my shadow and adored me, she would be looking out the window after me when Id go to work and i could hear her jumping on the inside of the door when i would insert the key every evening. I noticed there was still some unsteadiness in her back legs, but she walked up the stairs herself and lay down in her bed. Were going to take a trip out of town, you and mama and me. Not recognizing that your Yorkie, cockapoo, or Siamese cat was ill doesnt mean that you werent paying attention or taking good care of him or her! that's what happens to dogs that die, regardless of the kind of dogs they were. She seemed to have some level of coming to when I would resume cpr. Animals cant always communicate their physical health;pet ownerscant see inside their bodies and brains. I just miss my baby. Depending on the manner of killing you can interpret . She was 13.5 years old and just died on Wednesday of septis which was caused by gum disease, an abcess on her gum due to a cracked tooth. In that moment I made a decision I thought was best for her. He was very attached and dependable cat compared to my other cats. Everything about Cats and Dogs. Hi Everyone, I saw a posting about this several months ago but I can't seem to find it. She always had food in her last year but, water was far between. i have friends but our relationships arent strong. Time to time i check her to know of how shes doing. The topics discussed include practical . I cant live with myself in this severe pain. She did eat a reasonable amount before we left the house, and some in the car on the way there. He died because of me. I told all my family the same story I had told to the vet and I think I will have to probably carry this lie to the grave. When you welcome this dog into your home, shower the dog with lots of freedom, and (most importantly) affection. This can be a very effective way to treat Cushing's disease, but it comes . PROUD mum Vicky Simpson smiled as she looked at the photo she'd just uploaded to Facebook of 18-year-old son Liam, all ready for his first ever night out. As I turned around I tripped over her and fell on her and crushed her she was looking at me for help and I couldn't. I took her straight to. Ever. He died because of me. If there was any risk though, I wanted to do it. My sweet, sweet baby. Theres a rabbit warren there so big you can see it on Google Earth. He was my baby. But I on the other hand should have known that it wasnt safe to leave that window open. Over the years we really did not have to deal with death. This vet missed red flags during routine care as well as on the last day. ( 3) Depending on the pet's weight, Benadryl can be lethal at doses between 24 mg and 30 mg per kilogram. I picked her up hoping she would be okay but it was obvious she wasnt. We arrived home and she ate and drank. New comments cannot be posted and votes cannot be cast. I should have taken him in to the emergency vet that is several hours away, instead I waited because I was dealing with a bad work situation and did not take off. I make myself confortable watching them and I notice something kinda annoying. I gave authorisation for her to be put to sleep. Why didnt I go with my gut? My wife accidently killed my dog. This loss of control is a very painful but real part of life. My first pet snow a beautiful white cat my friend gave me. He ran away and stood in front of the entrance. I wake up and go to bed crying. After they all staying with me for a while in my bedroom , where I usually play games, we all go downstairs and I let them in the yard to play. Tr he vents, windows, a/c, doorif only I read the damn pamphlet! We waited all evening and night and found out she fractured her pelvis in three spots that required extensive surgery. I Love Him soo much. We adopted him 6 months ago, and we loved him so much. My cat suffered unnecessarily for quite sometime. She lectures in rabbit surgery at the Royal Veterinary College in London. Your child won't understand for a long time so don't take that personal. He was irresistible my own tiny slice of heaven on earth. One, named Pronto, broke his back and had to be put down. Even the most innocent pet ownersfeel guilt over a pets death. will she able to survive? We walked one night that first week he was gone..just one. The second one we found, I accidentally attacked my buddy's wolf, and his wolf raped my 2nd one and I was sad, I then killed his and he "EXECUTING SADFACE.EXE" and we looked for a while while he tried to suicide IG multiple times, he then went to go play left 4 dead 2 :[R.I.P If only i brought her earlier to the vet earlier she wont die she died because of my dumbness. 1 lbs and 10 oz. More selfish people would skip over this dog for a happy go lucky pet, but not you. Her cage was clean and she had food. Press J to jump to the feed. Maybe you should attempt to be helpful / constructive before hateful and useless. Ive had an unhealthy attachment to her for so long and have felt so guilty not being around her for a while. Answer (1 of 6): First, I am sorry. It wasnt alarming but she was definitely more active than usual. I turned to take a bite of my soup and I her a thud. She always been so sweet and loving to me, she didnt deserve to die that way. If you want to be better. My friend said take Honey home for the night. It was the first day having him on the road and of course, he was crying, scared. Love you and may we meet again. Im so sorry you had to go that way. I cannot describe the horror of what Im feeling. i would never beat him just because and i never came home looking to beat him but this anger inside of me, thats been there for 7 years, would always come out and i wouldnt realize what ive done till after ive done it. Maybe you should attempt to be helpful / constructive before hateful and useless. The doc also said that it would be a very long and expensive road to try to get her well (including the severe wound on her face) and that even then her prognosis was considered guarded at best. And she is more of a house cat. While I couldnt do anything. I knew I couldnt keep them so I started searching for homes. I shouldnt have taken our during the heat. He was such a sweet dog he was still wagging his tail in his last moments, laying in a stream of blood. He looked particularly smart as earl If only I had checked to make sure. It was still a baby. I shouldnt have taken him out. Lolly had gone into cardiac arrest as soon as they anaesthetised her. If you need someone to talk to, send me a message. She ate something in the house I feel so guilty for not protecting her from whatever got stuck in her tummy, i knew she liked to pull at her towels and bedding but at 3 years I didnt realize it was unsafe I should have known better, I should have taken all the soft bedding away from her. Press J to jump to the feed. He used to love it. - JoshDM. You are going to save that dog from euthanasia. i cant forgive myself. Im sorry and I hope you forgive me prince, I know you suffered and it wasnt right, even if you were going to die regardless last night I shouldve not left you in there with mom, I shouldve taken you to the vet so you could go peacefully. Anyhow im struggling my beloved kid had gone away from me. I spent months searching for the one that felt like ours and finally found him right before Christmas. I went in, I told her. By [consciously] killing a frog, mongoose, crow, cat, boar, mouse or a dog, a twice-born person . I even considered rehoming her several times over because of the guilt and neglect. The day before she died she was very active and verbal, wanting even more affection than usual. I feel both at the same time. You dont grasp the power your words have. We agreed to grieve in our own ways just for that day. I just kept planning these grand things for her future. I believe in my heart that Felix would still be here had I reacted faster. I took him out of his comfort zone. Thats what I did , but instead of going to their dog houses both males stay paralised which I now understand they mustve been scared . The active ingredient in slug bait is metaldehyde, and it can cause uncontrollable seizures in pets. I keep trying to find every excuse in the world for what I found but, I know she died because of my neglect. Thankfully, Hannah (Florios sister) is both a lovebug and an attention hog. I wish I could get justice for Buttercup and for myself. There had to be drafts coming from every where! Pulling on my shoes, grabbing a treat and sprinting off, desperately searching for a glimpse of a big brown dog, I was scared fucking shitless. In a few days I can take your ashes home. Im struggling with guilt after my 7 1/2 year old ferret, Ichabod, died yesterday. She was also terrified of the ground and I hadnt taught her enough to survive alone. Some people accidentally cause their dog or cats death by accidentally leaving them in harms way. It was my idea to bring in the cats, and I knew my wife would go for it. Yesterday my wife went to her mothers for the day and I went to Richmond Park nature reserve in London. I loaded her in the carrier and had to drop her off. Remember, however, that each dog is unique, and some dog owners may experience adverse reactions to fish oil supplements. I was not allowed to go inside due to Covid. Please bring her back :'( <\3. We also experience anticipatory grief, or the feelings of grief while our pet is still living, but we are aware of an . @JoshDM I wouldn't know whether to expect a lick or a bite. i never got him a cage but i had a little setup for him when i would be away at work, which was all day pretty much. qualifies. I couldnt bear to witness this. When I noticed I tried to grab him by the collar, he thought I was playing and ran out onto the road right in front of a bus. . Im going to start by sharing my story so others do not make the same mistakes I did. Im truly sorry for those of you who are experiencing the same level of grief, blame, anger, guilt and sadness that I am. I did think twice about it before I put her to bed for the night, and ran it past my wife, but she said to me shell be fine. My heart is with all of you. I could have moved his head and neck when I saw lifting the chair was hurting him. But being responsible for and witnessing your pet's death can add guilt, trauma and shame to the heartbreak . But as I said, Cleo had always managed it and as for Bella she would always wait to be let in or out as she was always so patient.

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